Sean The War Witch

Well....I had a dream recently, last night to be specific, and in this dream I was nowhere to be found and I was following two people as a third party watching them fall in love and what happens next. It was all of a romeo and Juliet stand point in this dream. It starts with the two love birds having another date where the guy and girl kiss and make out for a rather good while in a school. Still not quite sure what to make of the school not sure if it was a college or a high school to be exact actually, but they where in a back classroom storage area. The classroom was the storage area. They were just finishing and about to say the magic words "I love you", when they were interrupted with some loud noises outside the classroom, with lights turning on and flashlights all around. They keep quiet and move quickly, thinking they were caught by someone from the school, so they move to the door and gaze out of the small window on the door. What they saw confused them because ther

So if you didn't know I have been on a journey of self discovery and new beginnings of self discovery! So in this long journey I have found that music speaks to me just as crystals do! Music has its own language that can make you think, feel, and just plain have fun! New sounds and imagiges with some of those sounds can happen a bright new insight into yourself and your surroundings. I have found that music can be a most beautiful outlet. So with this in mind I have also made some beautiful friends and one of these wonderful creatures went to what is called Fairecon; and at Fairecon there is a band called Faun. And thanks to him I have found this band. I knew of Faun and have heard of it of course but have never actually sat and listened to it, until now. After hearing Faun, I was enraptured with them. The slow and fast tempos that go up and down, the wonderful macabre to their music that instills mysticism into my very soul makes it resonate with just sheer wonder and happin

I have had a lot of experiences with meditation and I can tell you it is amazing! I have gone through many journeys to find my Spirit Guardian. I was so excited when I did he is the Midnight Dragon. When I meditate now, after I found me Guardian and friend, I always go to this beautiful hillside. It is surrounded by a field of tall grass and woods in the distance! There is one gorgeous willow tree in the middle of the hill looking down on everything like a majestic king of trees. And when I get there I look to my right and i find myself now with my Staff. It's on my hands ready to be used for anything! When I first started to meditate it was the gorgeous glade with my King of Trees looking down upon me and nothing but grass around, but now there is nothing but grassy field with a forest all around it! And I never used to have my Staff either as well, but now I have it. No matter how hard I tried to have my Staff with me it never showed, but I noticed as I have gotten so powerfu

I'm not okay, I really am not Every time I look in the mirror I don't see what I wanted to be I just see some sort of monster I see something full of pain I'm not okay at all I cant understand up from down or right from wrong I'm not okay with myself I'm not okay with you I cant handle this at all I'm not okay when you leave me I may put on a brave face, but we both know its a lie I'm not okay at all I'm not okay with myself I'm full of self hate and loathing I hate everything about me and you I have so much rage I'm not okay and neither are you I cant handle it anymore I want this pain and sadness and hate to go away I cant handle love at all I hate it I hate myself I hate you I hate anything and everything I'm not okay with this at all I'm not okay when you leave or walk out I'm not okay when you breath I'm not okay with you speaking I'm not okay with you taking up space at all I'm jus

Well I got to have the pleasure of finally getting to see my family! You never know what you miss until you are almost 2 hours away! The thing is family is a very precious commodity in life, you can either choose your family or your family can choose you, or your stuck with the ones you have. And the major thing is sometimes you luck out and the ones you are "stuck" with are the ones that do there damnedest to make sure you are taken care of and do their hardest to do whats best for you. I have never appreciated this fact for the longest time actually, I never fully understood the significance of family.  Family can mean many different things to many different people.  A family of friends. A family of blood. A family of circumstances. All these are signifanct of their own. They have people drawn together for support and love. Love is the key to family. Whether some do realize it or not your family does love you in a way that you may not see yet, but it is t

A Chilling Dream: Chapter 1 By: Sean He stared out his window, pondering upon the rain splattering on the sill. His thoughts turned dark like they usually did wondering, always wondering, if he screwed up or hurt someone without knowing it, but still not sure why he even thinks upon those thoughts in the first place. The rest of his thoughts were, most times, of his suicide, but, luckily, he was a coward when it came to that. He thought of it and hurt himself at times, sometimes the people around him, just like they hurt him. He always seemed to pull through no matter how bad his twisted and painful pondering took him. He continued to rove over the landscape taking in the highway just at the end of the road. Gazing at the rain as it began to flood the yard and staring at the flashing sky. He had always found a fascination with the lightening and the sky and the blissful wind and rain. He always had hope when he felt the rush of the wind upon his face, making his insides gl